Oh sorry... who am I?
I'm Jatator (known also as Sartern or Nina Southbell)
About my SSO Character
So... It all started on kindergarten, in those times I didn't pay attention to it, but I realized I was always alone, usually I just sat inside drawing while other kids where outside playing games and so on, and nobody never asked or wanted me to be with them. Same continued when I started school, in that I also got my first bully's they we're on 2nd grade when I game 1st, in that it was just name calling "Fat girl", "Aloner", "Father's Girl" and so on.
I started new hobby (horse riding) when I was on 3rd grade and of course those same people came to me more often calling me "Horsegirl", "Wow you smell like horse poop", "Ew! horse fever don't go near her!" and so on... It was kinda mean and sometimes I came home crying. When I was on 5th grade I didn't get enough horses, I loved horses so much back then, so I started to ride on hobbyhorses (or stick horses call them whatever you want). And that was the real bullet when I made little video on Youtube where I did ride 17 seconds on a hobbyhorse, of course my bullies found the video and shared it with everyone in my school.... Well that's how the hell started and even that I got hate I started to make more videos, because I hoped that someday they would realize how "cool" it was.... Well looks like it wasn't. But in that grade I got few friends who came to me and said "hey, that what you do is actually pretty cool and we have also started to ride on hobbyhorses", it was the greatest day of my life and I felt so happy that I finally got friend.... well it didn't last long..
This was just a start... One day I came up with idea "I wanna lose weight", in those times I was plump, so I started it with innocent way, little less chips, candy and other things. But in time, I lost control of it and in the end I nearly ate anything. In the morning when I woke up I didn't eat anything, also in school I didn't eat anything and when I went to home I always said "i'm not hungry I ate at school", that was a lie. Sometimes I ate yogurt and some cucumber, I didn't eat anything else. I realized I losted my weigh little bit and it gave me power to think "how I can lose weigh faster?". I still did ride so I called to my riding teacher and I asked could I come sometimes to work in stables and help on lessons and so on, she accepted. The more I losted my weigh the more sad I became. Bullying, hard work, not much sleep and not so much food, everything seemed so unreal.
But here's the total:
- I have been bullied 11 years
ps. All of that text are true, nothings fake and nothing changed.